I started writing this post a while ago but got distracted and never returned to it. It's been a while since my last post too, and to be honest I just haven't been inspired to write. It's the same thing with having taken off so many years writing stories... I see a blank page and I get so intimidated. It used to be that I could sit down and channel the words through my fingers and on to the screen. But for some reason that ability seems to have gone dormant.
As I mentioned in my welcoming post, part of the purpose for starting this blog was to share some of my spiritual journey with the anonymous reader, with the intention that another soul who may be on the same journey can find some solace. I am feeling compelled to write, and the subject of this post will be some of the things that have happened to me in the last few months.
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Back in May part of the world was subject to one of the most awe-inspiring event we can witness.... a Solar Eclipse. Solar Eclipses are so rare, that when we are blessed by the arrival of one, it is hard to not feel the power, the amazement, the chill - the ancient sentiment that came when our Sun's glorious might was covered by the shadow of the Moon. That Sunday's eclipse was partial, and so the Moon's position was not quite close enough to completely block the Sun, an event that causes twilight in the middle of daylight, and I can only image how our ancient ancestors must have reacted when that happened.... But an annular eclipse is no less spectacular, creating a "ring of fire" around the Moon as it positions itself directly between the Sun and the Earth.
Solar Eclipses are quite powerful, and in spiritual circles it is believed that their energy can be harnessed to help with one's personal goals. I have always been prone to feeling energy shifts - when I was younger I always called it "feeling the history of a place" - and with this year marking a resurgence in my spiritual journey, I decided to take advantage of this momentous occasion, and made a list of Solar Eclipse Intentions that I focused on during the time when the energy was highest.
One of the items on my list was to establish a routine in the morning. I have never been a morning person, even though I love the energy of mornings. I love my dreams, and in the mornings where I am snoozing between alarm clocks beeps, my dreams are always intensified and I'm able to remember them better. It's hard to get out of bed when I can close my eyes and fly.
The morning after that eclipse the alarm clock on my phone started to go off. I lazily reached over to turn it off, when I discovered it was not on the nightstand that I always put it. In the foggy grog of sleepiness, I started feeling around on the floor, thinking it might have got knocked off. I could not find the phone, and the shrill buzzing had started to get the best of me. I sat up, turned on my light, and found the phone. Five feet away. On the ground. Still attached to the charger. Yet the charger was no longer attached to the outlet. Some how, during the night, the charger on my phone became detached from the wall outlet, and my phone, while still connected to the cord, ended up five feet away from my nightstand. Just far enough away to where I had to get out of bed to turn the alarm off. I do not know how this happened, but that morning, I stared at the phone, my jaw dropped, and knew in my heart this was a sign. I got out of bed, did a yoga routine, and had enough time to take my dog for a walk.
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Where I am at now I found a state park that was almost abandoned a few years ago due to lack of funding. It remained open, but most of the areas are closed off and unmaintained. This is perfect for me - the park is an absolute jewel in my eyes. Not only can I go to a forest that is more wild for being untamed, but since so few ever go, I can usually go with the benefit of being alone.
For the last few months I have been visiting one area in particular, which is close to the river and surrounded by towering oak, walnut and maple trees. I go here to sit by rivers edge and breath in deep with my eyes closed. If I am lucky there will be a soft breeze, so not only do I feel it across my face, but hear the wind through the trees, one of my favorite sounds.
When I visited the spot yesterday, I realized that all my time coming to the river's edge, I'd never once seen a fish. I love to spot fish in the water, and so this particular time I said "if Spirit is with my I'll see a fish." Not even two minutes after saying that, a huge carp swam right up to the river's edge, right in front of me. He swam around, looking for food on the rocks, the disappeared back in to the river depths. And behind him? Another carp, smaller this time. I smiled, feeling the energy with me, knowing that I was connected to it all. I breathed in a few more times, enjoying the moment. When I opened my eyes again, I looked to the river, and again I saw fish. This time there were four different little schools of tiny minnows, swimming close to the surface, feeding off bugs who were unfortunate enough to land near them. It was incredible - after all this time of never seeing any fish, here I ask to see them as a sign that I was not alone, and there they were.
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When people start to open their mind and soul to the Universe around them (to God/religion/spirituality), very often phenomenons begin to happen which will have some people labeling "paranormal", and others to just ignore and pretend it didn't happen. I have also been an open person, and throughout the years I seem to go through periods where things happen to me more often than not. One of these happenings is hearing voices that are in my head - but outside of mind, if you can grasp that. There was one period in time where this was happening so often I began to wonder if I had brought a spirit home with me on one of my paranormal investigations. It has been a while since this has happened, but it just did Tuesday morning. I was laying in bed, and had turned off my alarm, but kept my eyes closed, thinking I'd get up in a couple seconds. I fell asleep. I needed to get up early that morning because I had to be at work early. The next thing I know, I heard a male voice seemingly yell right in to my ear "BECKY!!" It was so loud that it scared me and set my heart racing. I sat up straight and looked around, wondering if it was my husband. But he was long gone, having already left for work. I realized then that I'd fallen asleep with my alarm clock off, and dreaded looking at the time. Only two minutes had gone by.
Through intuition, meditation, and spiritual readings I have discovered that one of my spirit guides (I have two) is male. He is my main guide, the one whose presence I often feel. I believe it was he who screamed in my ear to wake me up.
On a side note, my other guide is female. She is younger, childlike, and I believe it is her whose voice I always catch on my EVP records (I always have a young girl's voice on all my investigations - but that's another post, for another time).
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And finally for tonight's post, something that recently happened, that I didn't even really realize until I started writing this and had looked back at my Solar Eclipse Intentions List. I had not looked at this list since I wrote it back in May. The first thing on the it is Health. I am a drinking smoker, and it's something I've always wanted to give up. I've also always talked about exercising more, but aside from walking my dog every day, my workouts are very sporadic. Earlier last month I had a scare with some weird head and vision issues. I went to the doctor to find that my optic nerves are swollen. I am still in the process of ruling things out and getting formal diagnosis, but right now my doctors believed that I have IIH (idiopathic intracranial hypertension). While it is a relatively rare affliction and little is known about it, studies have shown that if weight is lost in those that are overweight, the pressure will abate and symptoms regress. That was all I needed to hear. Since then I have quit smoking, stopped drinking (only because drinking was starting to make me get instant headaches - plus when you're a drinking smoker, eliminating the catalyst is a good way to quit), and I've been working out every day. Even though I am scared of what is going on, I am happy that Health has been brought to the forefront of my mind, and I'm using that energy to assist with my goals.
And this morning when I was laying in bed, trying to will myself to get out of bed, I looked at the clock and saw that it was 5:55am. 5-5-5 is an angelic number said to signify changes in your life. I believe it was right on cue.
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For those that stuck with me to the end here, thank you for reading! I hope that my sharing some of these experiences has helped you in some way.
Stormily Yours, With Love ~
B*
