Let It Go

Let it go.

Three words.  Such a simple phrase.  To the point, easy to understand the direct implication.  Let it go.....

Yet in action, it can be rather difficult to do.  Why?  Why is it hard to let go of the things that no longer serve us, that torment us, that weigh us down in sadness?  Why do we hold on to these things so fiercely, like badges of toxic praise?

I consider myself a generally happy person.  Throughout the years I have learned to dismiss certain feelings, to accept certain truths, and to learn from mistakes.  I am much more at peace now than I was two, three, five years ago.  But yet, I still have moments of sadness.  I still have days where all I want to do is stay curled up in bed with the blankets around me, not acknowledging anything except my dreams that take me away to far off places.  My life is not perfect, by any means.  But I am here.  I am alive.  I have a home to shelter me, a husband who loves me, family and friends I adore, and animals that are my soul's companions.  I am healthy and whole.  And yet still, these moments come, and I feel powerless to stop them.

Until now.

A few days ago life brought me back to Gina, the Angel communicator I'd worked with before.  I decided to have an Angel reading done on myself.  One of the main themes of this reading was letting things go that no longer serve, emotionally speaking.  My angels and guides were letting me know that they are there, always, to help with this task.  My first thought when this was brought up was that I wasn't sure what it meant.... I AM happy, I have nothing I'm holding on to.  But the immediate thought after that was  Oh really?  Miss Grudge Queen?  Miss Never Forget?  Ah, yes.  There they are.  There are those little nuggets of the past.  After that it was as if a flood gate opened.  I started remembering things I had not thought of in years.  This also brought me back to when I had energy work done in the fall of last year.  It was the first time I'd ever done anything like it.  During the session Deirdre would say more than once, "you need to let that go... why are you holding on to that?  just let it go...".  I have to admit at the time I had no idea what she was talking about.  Now I do.

I believe that my issues are two-fold.  Not only am I holding on to these toxic emotional bombs,  but I am also very sensitive to others energy.  If I am around people who are negative, I feel emotionally drained, fatigued, and sometimes I will even start to feel the symptoms of a panic attack.  When this first started happening I had no idea what was going on.  When I started to understand, I never really looked into it, and as a result I never knew how to protect myself from it.  I always thought it was just something that was a part of me and that I had to live with.  Only recently have I started looking more in to the world of energy, and only just recently I started learning how to shield myself - by way of it popping up over and over again in various things I've been reading.

Throughout the Angel reading the phrase let it go, let it go, let it go kept reverberating in the back of my mind.  Since then it has almost been beating me over the head.  In random conversations with people, news reports, on the radio, even on Facebook and Pinterest.  I've been seeing and hearing LET IT GO everywhere.  

I do not believe in coincidence; I believe that everything happens for a reason.  When we start to notice things over and over, they are being brought to our attention for a purpose.  If we don't listen to them, the forces that be will take more drastic approaches, such as what has recently happened to me.  Even tonight, I started to write this entry, and then had second thoughts.  I flipped to Facebook - the page started scrolling through the Newsfeed and landed on this post:  "Pssst.... Hey you.  Yeah I mean you.  The angels have seen you struggling with something.  The angels say it's over..."  (I actually re-posted that one, since it so totally hit the spot for me).

And so, you win Universe, I hear you... I'm paying attention.  I will start to let it go.  I will start to shield myself from others energy and remember that life is about balance.  I only ask for your help, guidance, and Love.

♥


*** This is a very personal entry for me... I had debated on publishing it.  But in the end, I felt compelled to do so.  I hope that it helps another. ***

Personal Vibration

What is "personal vibration"?

Those in the spiritual community are already familiar with this term.  I admit I am very novice... what IS personal vibration?  I have heard it used so often, yet I do not know what it actually is.  But I have a guess, so tonight's topic will be to explore what this means.....

I believe that the term "personal vibration" is the same as your personal energy.  When you are happy, laughing, and smiling, how does your energy feel?  Amazing, right?  You feel like you could conquer any task.... Kids driving you nuts?  Pets zapping your patience?  Bills and financial burden mounding?  Mid-term at school making you feel like you could cry?  Neighbors loud, obnoxious music driving you to insanity?  When your energy is at the level that is when you are happiest, none of that matters.  You "know" by whatever means - through intuition, God, Buddha, a "feeling" - that you will overcome it.  That is when your "personal vibration" or your energy is at it's highest.

Maybe the example of being happy and laughing isn't quite working for you... how about after a great workout?  The endorphins are pumping, your blood is rushing, even the air around you smells amazing and electrified....  or how about, well, after a loving encounter with your spouse or partner?  You feel released and at peace.  These are the moments when your energy/vibration is at it's highest point.  These are the moments when nothing else matters, because you KNOW that you are an amazing being, who can overcome any odds.

This is how I envision what "personal vibration" means.  And since everything - e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g - is made of energy, including the Earth and all that it encompasses - but let's not limit ourselves, the UNIVERSE is made up of energy, and all IT encompasses - everything has a vibration level.  That being said, everything you encounter you interact with on an energetic level.  I imagine that most of this is unseen/un-felt on human terms, but those that are more sensitive (I'm thinking animal but humans are also capable) can and do perceive these fluctuations.

So, why does all this matter?  Who the heck cares about this "hippie" energy crap anyway?

Well, reflect back on the examples I proposed earlier, and how when your energy/vibration is at its highest, you feel the best.  Imagine living your whole life this way, in every waking moment?  How amazing would that be?  Now, we are only human, and no matter your philosophical or religious outlook, you know that we will have bad days.  But the thing to remember, I think, is that on those bad days and dark moments, we need to do all we can to raise our vibrational levels, in order to be at peace again, and to help us remember that these are only emotions.... the events that take place in our lives are catalysts, but ultimately we are responsible for how we react.  Think back upon those moments in life that make you happy, and you will raise your vibrational level, which in turn will help you overcome what you are facing.

And remember, if ever the obstacle seems to be too high or too hard, ask your guides, angels, God, Spaghetti Monster - whatever you label the beings who are part of us and separate from us - for help.  Pray, if you need (which also raises vibrations... another entry for another day).  But KNOW that you CAN overcome, it may take time, but you CAN overcome, and you are never, ever, alone.

♥

*** As I claimed, I am very new to all of this, and welcome advice, clarifications, and your own musings on the topic.... please feel free to comment! ***